i miss you.i used to know everything about you.but things have changed.i have a lot of questions.so many left unanswered.i know i have a little spot in ur life now.i used to be a big part of that.now all i have are queries.what do u like,what makes you happy,what makes u busy,what are ur interests,whats ur fave fud,where u hangout,what makes u cry,what makes u smile.who are ur friends now...i cant blame you.i pushed u away.it's late when i realized we're in different worlds already.new circle of friends.when i try to fit in ur world, the more i feel far from you.far from what makes u happy.but id rather see u happy with them.id rather see u smiling,laughing ur heart out,having fun with them.than seeing u sad when ur with me..you dont like the new me.i dont like it either.i wish i could bring back the old times.i wish we're kids again.laughing in the rain.swimming.playing street games.and even picking fights with other kids,wahahha..all of it,when we had fun together.when i made u happy.selfish huh.but im not.
and so id rather let u be with ur new friends.coz i cant take care of u.coz i always make u feel taken for granted.im sorry..
and so i wont keep u for myself.id rather see ur blissful face rather than see u pissed with me.id rather see u happy..
still..
im just here in case you need me.. :P
i talked to a sis last friday.she's been asking me for a meeting with her since last week, but i always declined.i was busy these past few days.on second thought,i've been busy since time immemorial.haha.that's why my bestfriend got sick of it.i guess.
that friday wasn't different.it's still a busy day.but i had to talk to her.i need that talk.i was hungry for it.no mind with the recits.no mind with the backlogs.i just felt i had to meet up with her.
and so i went.9am.i grabbed my Torts book and Regina folder and hurriedly left.i was thinking of what my schedule would be for that day while walking.what time my class would be, how many hours vacant, what time i could eat, what class would i skip if i wouldnt be able to study.blah blah blah.too many things to take note of.
and then i saw her.patiently waiting for me.and then we started talking about things..stuffs...friendship,anger,dreams,love,frustrations,happiness, family,faith,silliness, simple things..
then it hit me.im not THAT busy at all.just a case of a cluttered mind.
a cluttered life.a life full of unimportant things to worry about.that there are far more important things in life than being stuck with things that you can't change,things that you can't control.
that im too busy, unmindful of things that teaches us just from letting it happen,things that touches us real deep..
and i just have to let go and let God..
thanks sis.that was a big help.i don't mind the tears and the puffy eyes.the peace of mind you gave me was all worth it.
keep the faith.
time check...
happiness.. 
it's been three years since i've posted something here..upon reading it, halata ko lang na sikat ata noon si "daba kong toda"...hahah..i wonder who that is..oh well, sya si ano..ask my cousins if what name nung sikat na sikat na nkalagay sa copy ng cases ko...grabe, i miss those crazy days..i wonder where that guy is now..heheeh..
hatred..
it's been three years..i feel i have no choice but to finish law school..have to..there are people who wants us to fail..you'll never get your wish..harhar..and for those of you who made our Christmas "almost" a cold one.. hope you don't ever feel that hurt..damn you..
moving on
it's been eight years..i'm letting you go..i know you're happy now, an answered prayer..i've been stuck on this for sooo long..finally someone made the first move..a BIG help.. a sincere THANK YOU for every moment i felt happy..
looking forward to better days :)
hay...it's 2am...habang kayo ay mga tulog..ang mata ko naman ay dilat pa...
uhmmm...i've been stressed lately..este...lagi lagi na lang akong stressed..pambansang krungkrung na ata tlg ako...
kainis...kelan kaya ako pu2nta ng skul na aral na aral, tapos notebook and pen lang dala? astig diba...pero kelan kaya yun...
hay lyf...kung bakit ko pa kasi pinasok to...
hehehe...
bakit kaya lagi na lang nasa huli ang regrets?
pero yung ibang tao kasi, alam na nila ngaun pa lang if ano ba tlg gusto nilang gawin sa lyf nila...some of my friends will get married na next year..yung iba naman career muna ang inaasikaso..ung isang frend ko naman, ngpakalulon sa kadramahan ng luvlyf..ung bestfrend ko, gusto muna tapusin nursing nya..ung isa pang best ko, kinacareer ang engineering tsaka yfc... [peace dona]....and ME??? waahahaha..'til now. im not really sure if i'm supposed to be in skul..hahaha...but i really want to be a lawyer someday...kaya lang sabi nga ni tin, this skul includes all aspects of your feelings..emotional, physical, psychological,religious aspects..blah blah...sabi nga nung classm8 ko dati, prayer is the best thing that can guide us in law school...true enough...si papa God na nga lang kinakausap ko pag naba2liw na ko ka2basa...hay..as ive said before, kung bakit kasi 24hrs lang ang hours in a day? bitin...
i do hope na maayos ko na pagiisip ko regarding what i want to be in the future...kasi naman matanda na ko kaya kelangan nang ayusin ang lyf dava..hindi lagi na lang inuman eto..haahah...
hay..la na naman sense ang mga pinagsasabi ko...
baka magalit na2man yung isa dyan nd mareklamo na2man about friendster blogs...
well, sori..gusto ko lang mgtype ngaun before going to sleep..para msaya...
un lng...
and as may old paboritong parting phrase says: .... "daba kong toda si @#$%##4.."
haahahah,,
miss ko na kayo... :)
blah...blah..blah....
Come to think of it, looks like it’s so simple to be happy…
It’s so EASY to be one…
uhmmm...
and there are so many reasons for a person to smile once in a while…
Meeting old friends…
Call from a special one…
Text from a long lost friend…
“ingat” from a crush….
Eating 6 times a day…
Sleeping more than 8hrs a day… ['ope i'l have one..]
Money for gimik…
Corny jokes…
singing along with "hale" "cueshe" and the like......
Yet, at the end of the day, just for one frustration....you’re still unhappy…
The question is…
Why is it that the reason why one person is unhappy tend to affect her more than the reasons why she was smiling? Pathetic….
Human nature?
They say that no one can ruin your day unless you permit them to do so…
so easy for them to say…
But no matter how you try to spend your day right, hurts come…frustrations come…
I guess some people are not this sad..
But I am sometimes...…
Family…friends…school….blah blah blah..
Damn those things…
Good thing my close friends told me that happiness is a choice....
and i choose to be happy...hahahah...
Good thing that even with these life stuffs,
they tend to make me smile, laugh, giggle...whatevah...
Good thing im not the drama queen anymore...
it's easier to smile now...
it feels good to smile now...
just simple words...
simple stuff...
no vague ones....
no need to check mr thesaurus......
simple thing that i want to share with my dear friends...
as the pic says....miss you guys... :-P
< the ? is: sino yung girl? ba malay ko....ahahahaa..nagandahan lang ako sa pic nya...tsaka yung msg sa pic...>
la lang... nagha2nap kasi aq ng space dito sa friendster para masingit to...kaya dito na lang sa blog....ehhehe....
all i wanna say is......
miss ko na si daba qng toda..... :P
wahahahaha.... :)
